Why do i even like him?

I don't think it's a person's qualities that make you fall for them, but rather the way you see them. Although it seems this guy had tons of flaws, the reason could be his imperfections are what you like best. It sounds nuts to say, but it is a possibility. They always say things happen for a reason. If you feel pain, it will get you stronger. If you feel resent towards him, then you will learn what people to not associate with in the future. Hope I was some help, Good luck!